I want the best life possible and I don’t think a lot of people understand what I mean when I say that. There is a reason that I haven’t had children yet, and why I can not be in a committed relationship, and the reason is because I NEED to have myself completely together first. I want to give myself the world before I include anyone else into my life and I refuse to deviate from that plan. When I finally do decide to take someone serious I don’t want to have to worry about what I can do for them financially, I just want to be able to do it without it affecting me at all. I never in my life want to have to depend on anyone because I want us both to come to the table fully equipped and able to do for each other without one bit of stress. I want to struggle alone for now so that when I truly am ready the struggle will have been worth it. So all that I ask is that God give me relentless strength and courage, because if I have that there is nothing I can not push myself through.